Billie Lourd Shares Emotional Tribute to Mom Carrie Fisher 7 Years After Death: 'She Is with Me Every Day'

Mar. 15, 2025

Carrie Fisher with daughter Billie Lourd in 2015.Photo:Barry King/WireImage

Barry King/WireImage

Billie Lourdis paying tribute to her motherCarrie Fisheron the seventh anniversary of her death.

TheStar Warsactressdied on Dec. 27, 2016, at age 60. On Instagram Wednesday, Lourd, 31,shareda throwback photo honoring Fisher and shared how her experience with grief has changed over the years.

“It has been 7 years since my mom died (but who’s counting?? Me I guess?) Every anniversary brings a different iteration of my grief,” she wrote. “Some infuse me with rage, some make me cry all day long, some make me feel dissociated and empty, some make me feel nothing, some make me feel guilty for feeling nothing, and some make me feel all of those things all at once.”

“This year,” continued Lourd, “when I woke up I felt grateful - or griefull, if you will. Grief has infused my life with a sense of appreciation I had never had before. It makes me soak up every moment of joy as if it were my last.”

Lourd shares two kids withhusband Austen Rydell, whom she married in March 2022: sonKingston, 3, and daughterJackson Joanne, 12 months.

“Today I was holding my daughter while she was napping in my arms and my eyes welled up with tears of joy,” theAmerican Horror Storyactress wrote in her caption. “I laughed at myself then cried more cause I was laughing.”

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Lourd also shared how she tells her kids about their late grandmother.

Earlier this year,Lourd accepted the Hollywood Walk of Fame starthat Fisher posthumously received during aninduction ceremony on May 4, aka Star Wars Day.

Carrie Fisher in 2013.Stefania D’Alessandro/WireImage

Stefania D’Alessandro/WireImage

“Mama, you’ve made it,” she said at the time. “My mom died six and a half years ago, and ever since, I’ve fallen deeply in love with Leia and the entireStar Warsuniverse. I buy every single piece of Leia merch I Leia my eyes on.”

On April 1, Lourd honored her grandmotherDebbie Reynolds, whodied at the age of 84just one day after Fisher, on Dec. 28, 2016, with an Instagram photo to commemorate the late actress' birthday.

In a previous Instagram tribute to Fisher last December, Lourd talked about her mom never getting the chance to meet her husband and kids.

Billie Lourd attends the ceremony for Carrie Fisher being honored posthumously with a Star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame May 4, 2023.David Livingston/Getty Images

David Livingston/Getty Images

“My mom is not here to meet either of them and isn’t here to experience any of the magic,” Lourd wrote.

source: people.com