Love Is Blind’s Clay Says It 'Broke My Heart' to Hurt AD and Admits She's 'the Love of My Life'

Mar. 15, 2025

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Warning: This story contains spoilers from the season 6 reunion ofLove Is Blind.

Clay Gravesandeis apologizing for breakingAmber Desiree “AD” Smith’s heart.

Love Is Blindfans were left shocked after Clay, 31, said “I don’t” to AD, 33, at the altar in theseason 6 finale. DuringLove Is Blind: The Reunion,which aired on Wednesday, he addressed his missteps and apologized for hurting his ex-fiancée.

“Throughout this whole process, one of the biggest things I struggled with was getting out of my own way,” he said. “AD always … made me feel like the best person but I couldn’t get out of my own way. I kept looking at myself in the mirror and saying, ‘I’m not the guy that deserves love and marriage.'”

“She’s honestly the love of my life, and I did make a mistake going to the altar and saying no,” he continued, adding that he’s been doing therapy “to be a better person” before apologizing once more. “It was a big let-down and I apologize. I love you. You are the love of my life and it was a mistake.”

After separating on their wedding day, Clay told cameras, “I looked at myself in the mirror and said, ‘Am I a husband?’ and the answer was no. ‘Am I deeply in love?’ the answer was no. Those are two things if you can’t say yes to those answers, why are you getting married?"

As for AD, she said she really loved Clay in a confessional. “I don’t regret saying yes to him.Mylove is blind. There’s nothing that he could’ve shown me, told me, that would’ve changed my answer,” she said. “I don’t see myself continuing to date him. You don’t wanna pick me? Somebody else will. I’m done. My heart is broken.”

Clay and AD on ‘Love is Blind’.Jackson Lee Davis/Netflix

Jackson Lee Davis/Netflix

When it came to watching their wedding back, AD said at the reunion that it was “really tough” to do, adding, “The love that I had for this man, it was tough to watch because it was such a lead-up to such a crazy let-down.”

Clay agreed, noting he was embarrassed to see everything unfold again. “I felt like I disrespected her family… I wasted their time, that definitely hurt.”

Now over a year later, AD said she’s in a better place. Though the two didn’t speak for weeks after their wedding day, Clay eventually reached out and the two resolved some of their issues.

This prompted her to set the record straight, telling him: “You had your chance, there’s nothing that I wouldn’t have given you, there’s nothing I wouldn’t have done for you. And low key, respectfully, you played in my f—ing face… because you knew that you didn’t want to get married.”

Clay denied that theory, saying, “As [the wedding] was going on, I’m looking at you and I’m like, I don’t know if I can show up for you every day.”

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But, while he wasn’t ready then, Clay said he’s ready to be married now after he “put the work in” and went to therapy. “I wanna be a good guy, I wanna be the best version I can be and it sucks I wasn’t like that for you,” he said through his tears. “It wasn’t intentional… it broke my heart to break your heart.”

“I came out a different man and I have to credit that to AD. When someone changes your life, you don’t turn your back on them,” he added.

Later in the reunion, AD reacted to the emotional scene between Clay’s parents. “That conversation really closed the circle for me,” she explained. “There were a lot of missing pieces that I just could not understand… hearing that conversation really showed me that he was battling things that there’s nothing I could’ve done to take that stress from him.”

“I didn’t want to, respectfully, be Clay’s mom in long run,” she added. “I didn’t want that to be my story.”

Clay and AD on ‘Love Is Blind’.Courtesy of Netflix

Clay previouslyopened up to PEOPLE about whyhe decided to come on the series, given his commitment concerns, and what was going through his head leading up to his wedding day.

“I think for me, I was battling a lot,” he explained. “I have conversations with myself all the time where I can make a commitment, and then also within me making that commitment, I have self-doubts.”

He added, “And so I think what you’re seeing is a moment of self-doubt, based off how I was raised," he continues. “And my parents were married for 24 years, but I [spoke about] it on the show that I saw my dad have some infidelity moments. So I think for me, I made the commitment, but when I was actually in it, I was like, ‘Can I really do this?’ So it was a lot of self-doubt coming through.”

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Love Is Blindseason 6 is streaming in full on Netflix.

source: people.com