Robyn Brown Has No Idea What the Future Holds After Family Unraveled: It Felt 'Like There Was a Death' (Exclusive)

Mar. 15, 2025

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In an exclusive interview with PEOPLE, theSister Wivesstar, 45, opens up about life afterChristine,JanelleandMeri Brownleft their plural marriage and how their departure has felt like a “death.”

“It’s [just] Kody and I, and we’re getting through this and figuring this out, but it does feel like we lost … like there was a death,” she says. “And we’re both going through a death separately.”

“Tt feels like we’re going through a death and we’re both handling it differently. And we’re in different places with it,” she adds, sharing how she’s prayed and asked for “God’s guidance and help” through a “very confusing time.”

“What I liked a lot about living plural marriage was the team effort, where I had sister wives,” she said, sharing how she “really wanted that camaraderie” andsense of “sisterhood"in addition to her marriage to Kody.

“I wanted that experience of my sister wives loving my children and being able to love their children and feeling like this kind ofbig, happy family, big group of peoplethat really cared about each other,” she said. “So that’s what I liked about it.”

“It looks a little different,” she said of the family’s current dynamics. “I sure hope it’s possible, but I can’t have expectations. I can’t put expectations on people, I’m realizing more and more, as far as family and that connection and spending time together and stuff and operating kind of a family. So I hope and I pray that it’s possible, but that will be that a situation where everybody has to choose that. So I don’t know.”

“I don’t know what to do with it. It’s messing with my identity,” she continued during the special before bursting into tears. “It’snot the future I wanted. I want that house with us on the porch in the rocking chairs with our grandkids and our kids around us. You know, the grandparent ranch. That’s what I want.”

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source: people.com