Tarek El Moussa Admits He 'Wasn't the Best Guy' to Ex-Wife Christina Hall, Says Divorce 'Really Broke Me'

Mar. 15, 2025

Tarek El Moussa, Christina Hall.Photo:Roy Rochlin/Getty, John Photography/Shutterstock

Roy Rochlin/Getty, John Photography/Shutterstock

Tarek El Moussais reflecting on his painfuldivorce.

“I wasn’t the best guy during those years," admitted El Moussa, who was married to his formerFlip or Flopco-host, 40, for seven years. “When you’re going throughmultiple cancers back-to-backand your hormones are off and you’re in surgeries and you have no thyroid, you do things you normally wouldn’t do,” he continued, before clarifying that none of that is “an excuse” for his behavior, but “it was tough.”

“But you know, what really broke me was my divorce,” El Moussa added. “That was exponentially more difficult than every issue in my entire life put together. And somehow, I got through it.”

His divorce from Hall is a topic he discusses in-depth in hismemoir,Flip Your Life: How to Find Opportunities in Distress—in Real Estate, Business and Life, including the moment hefled to a nature area with a .38-caliber pistolafter a “blowup” fight with his ex-wife.

In January, prior to the release of his book on Feb. 6, theFlip or Flopstar told PEOPLE that his relationship with his ex-wife is now“better than it’s ever been.”

Tarek El Moussa and Heather Rae El Moussa with their son Tristan and Tarek’s kids Brayden and Taylor.Heather Rae El Moussa/Instagram

Heather Rae El Moussa/Instagram

“I hold nothing against Christina. I don’t blame her. I understand why she did what she did,” he said of Hall, with whom he sharesdaughter Taylor, 13, and son Brayden, 8.

Though he admitted he was “lost and sad and lonely” after their split, he said he no longer holds any grudges. “We had a lot of hard years through my sicknesses and my mental health struggles from the testosterone. So no ill feelings, and I understand her point of view," he added.

Nowadays, they “all communicate well, even Heather and Christina,” he said.“We really focus on the kids.”

Christina Hall, husband Josh Hall, Taylor El Moussa, Brayden El Moussa and Christina’s son Hudson Anstead.Christina Hall Instagram

Christina Hall Instagram

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Tarek also said that he thinks it’s “very important” for his kids to eventually read his memoir, “because they know me as the dad they know today — happy, positive, loving, fun, caring, giving — and I think it’s important for them to understand, no, I wasn’t always like that.”

“And in their lives, they’re going to go through hard times and it’s not always going to be rainbows and butterflies,” he added. “When hard times come, you have to be prepared, you got to be ready to fight and you got to keep going.”

source: people.com